Have you wondered where I’ve been? Well, I’ve been hiding from the internet. Weeks have passed by since the last time I wrote. I admit that I was struggling with my inner self, not feeling much motivation to write.
When I first started this blog, I felt excited because I wanted to inspire others through writing. In the beginning, many friends encouraged me that kept me going, but then, I didn’t hear from anyone. At the same time, I can see how many people visit this blog through the statistic function of my website and my Facebook page. Since the time I started my blog, my numbers dropped, which felt discouraging and disheartening. Immediately, I thought about what kind of articles I could write to interest my audience. Even with new posts, the numbers never rose back to as high as when I began. These figures stared me in the face and telling me that I am a failure. Slowly, it crushed my spirit and my heart cracked into a million little pieces.
This made me think of a bunch of questions. What do I have to write about to engage my readers? What do they want to read about? How do I get my numbers up again? Am I really boring? Is what I’m writing about not useful? Why did I ever commit to blogging in the first place? All these questions circled my head to a point where I decided to take a break from blogging and those ugly numbers magically went away.
During my time away, I thought back to my Shine Brightly project. My January challenge was to start a blog for the goal of inspiring people to shine brightly. I accomplished starting the blog, but sustaining it and encouraging others are still questionable.
I admit that I wasn’t shining brightly, but fading dimly in the distance. How could I encourage others when I was struggling with this myself? Wait…wasn’t my goal to get lots of visitors or likes on Facebook?
That’s when it hit me that I wasn’t keeping my eyes on my goal of inspiring people to shine brightly, but rather I focused on the numbers. I realized that I had to keep my eyes on the prize to write for the sake of encouraging others, not on how many people visits my blog. If I made a difference in just one person’s life, that’s enough for me to keep writing.
I appreciate those who have been reading and encouraging me to continue writing. Also, I’m thankful for those who shared with me their Shine Brightly project and I hope you continue to press on toward your goals.